Tuesday, October 16, 2007
I am a big fan of women named Lori
Sunday was Lori and I's first anniversary. After being married a year, I realized something. I have grown more in the last year with Lori than any year previous. This verse has become really real Ephesians 5:25 - "Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her." Over the last year, I have come to realize how hard it was for Christ to give his life for me because how little I actually give myself for Lori. I have come to respect Christ that much more. I realize that I don't love Lori as Christ loves the church because I am really selfish 100% of the time.
I also read the three previous verses "Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything." I then see that I have authority issues and I don't like submitting to Christ. I see how Lori does follow me when I do lay down my life and I wonder why I don't have that same drive to follow Christ in that manner. I can be a real idiot but I don't understand why submitting is so hard for me. Jesus has laid down his life but I do an awful job of living out it out.
Lori is doing a great job of showing me Christ. After a year, I have so much longer to go.